ok..so I'm back
I know I know I know! I said I was done. I was. Done. And then...I just had more I wanted to say. Like I wanted to tell you how silly it feels to have sold this book but that I can't find anytime to write it because ....I'm too busy being a mom and Dan is gone all the time at school or bartending...and somehow I want to just do dishes when I get a second or take a nap, none of which is very fruitful because whenever I think I'm going to do either one my son takes a 45 minute nap, so I just lie there with my pillow over my head listening to the monitor with dread and KNOWING I should be writing. But seriously, is this a normal reaction? Shouldn't I be culling through all my old blogs and writing writing with every second I get...? Maybe I'm recovering from so much stress I almost can't do more stress until I can...so I'm existing or something...Anyway, here I am sitting down to write you. I've decided, despite saying it's over...well, I'm waffling and I may keep going here. Fall has come. We baptized our son this weekend with our friends and family around us--my brother Aran and sister in law Margot came all the way from Mexico and Vanessa and Craig and Alix all the way from NYC to stand around and bless our child on a cold, gorgeous, trees aflame day. Now I'm trying to figure out how to write under the gun...and how to also be a Mom which if you ask me is a more than full time job but there's this career/book thing that also needs to be a full time job....So, this is a learning curve...a new journey begun.
Lots of Love, Caitlin.
Caitlin Shetterly
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I absolutely understand the feeling, you are not alone! I should be reading, writing, focusing on subjects for papers or even just reading the piles of pages next to the bed that inevitably need to be read.
Logic tells me the more important thing to do is read and write and get done with my masters...
ah, but that dang brain keeps getting distracted by bits of dust that didn't bother me the day before I had a deadline...and cutting out names and holidays for a home-school project with the kids seems like so much more fun...and...and...and...
If you find the magic elixer, please let me know. :)
eep. elixir. See what the sleep deprivation is doing to me?
It is very hard being a writer and a mama. I haven't figured it our myself. Hang in there. 15 minutes at a time. I do know it gets easier as the kids get older and can play by themselves for longer periods, but the early years are difficult and require much sacrifice. Hang in there. You'll find your way.